TERRY YORATH today spoke out for the first time about his drink-drive shame.
He talked exclusively to the Examiner about his remorse - and vowed never to drink and drive again.
Huddersfield Town's first team coach - sentenced for being three times over the limit when knocking down 27-year-old pedestrian Raziya Aslam near Leeds in June - made his first visit to a probation officer yesterday.
It was the opening part of a new chapter of his life for Yorath, 54, who was banned from driving for 30 months, fined £500 and given a 12-month community rehabilitation order, including 60 hours of community punishment.
The former Wales international player and manager - who now lives in a flat in Alwoodley, north Leeds - said he was `truly sorry' about what had happened and said he would never again get behind the wheel under the influence of alcohol.
"I just want to get the events of the last few months behind me and get my life moving forward again," said Yorath, who now travels to work by train.
"Lots of things have happened, but I've remained quite professional, I think, in the way I've treated my job here.
"Family matters are a different thing, but I've got to look forward and not look back.
"I am truly sorry about what has happened and can't express my remorse enough.
"I have given myself a very hard time over this, because that's the kind of person I am.
"I hated what happened and it certainly hasn't been a great time. But hopefully I will experience a few better times in the months and years ahead.
"I am obviously going to take my punishment and I am certainly never going to drink and drive again. If I did ever do that again I would be a madman. That would be a crazy thing to do."
Yorath - whose daughter, Gabby Logan, was fronting ITV's coverage of Euro 2004 at the time of his crash - had 120 micrograms of alcohol in 100 millilitres of breath. The legal limit is 35.
The court was told of the breakdown of his 33-year marriage to Christine and of the tragic death, 12 years ago, of Yorath's son Daniel, at the age of 15, from a rare heart defect.
Yorath, who has two other grown-up children, Louise and Jordan, says he has never overcome that grief. He has been deeply involved in charity work ever since.
Raziya suffered a broken pelvis and head injuries when hit by Yorath's X-type Jaguar.
She still suffers from constant headaches and crippling pain in her legs.
District Judge David Kitson, sentencing him for driving with excess alcohol and without due care and attention, said he was 'just able' to avoid jailing Yorath.
"It was a nightmare. It's a big relief the court case is all over," admitted Yorath.
"There are still bits and bobs to come and stuff I've got to do. But I will just get on with it and, hopefully, things will turn out all right. I am truly sorry about what happened, without a shadow of a doubt.
"The girl made some disparaging remarks after it happened - and rightly so. She must have been very angry and her family must have been very angry. I understand that.
"When you are in a situation like that and you know you've done wrong you haven't really got a lot to say about it. You just hold your hands up.
"She said that I didn't try to apologise to her, but it was a very difficult time. I was getting advised by solicitors on one side and other people on the other side.
"I phoned the hospital umpteen times and Chapeltown police station umpteen times to find out how she was.
"The police were quite good. The hospital, obviously because I wasn't a relative, wouldn't tell me anything.
"All the time I was ringing I wasn't getting much information about how she was.
"Looking back, I am really and truly sorry.
"It could obviously have been a lot worse and I thank God it wasn't. Hopefully, we can all now get on with our lives again."
Yorath was back at the Galpharm Stadium yesterday for the first time since he was sentenced on Tuesday.
He was on the touchline for the Carling Cup defeat by his old club, Leeds United, and will be at the side of manager Peter Jackson for tomorrow's home game with Peterborough and the trip to Doncaster on Monday.
"The club have been fantastic," added the man who returned for a second spell at Town with Jackson just over 14 months ago.
"The office staff, commercial staff, Peter in particular, Andrew Watson and Ken Davy have all been great.
"They've never mentioned anything to me directly, but just expressed hopes that everything worked out OK in the end. I'm grateful for that.
"Stupid as it may sound, I'm quite enjoying the relaxation of travelling in on the train. It takes only 20 minutes from Leeds to here and it's quite therapeutic not having to get on the M62.
"At other times I wish I had a car, obviously, but that's not to be. I've got to take that punishment and that's the way it is."
Yorath says he is not thinking about the possibility of having his driving ban reduced even after completing the rehabilitation course.
"That is not something I want to take out of this," he said.
"I have got to learn, even at 54 years of age, that this is the way it is. Hopefully, it's a fresh start."