THE Lockwood mother of two young boys, deported back to Malaysia, has spoken of her plight to the Examiner.
Failed asylum seeker Siti Hassan, 35, is living in a women's refuge back in her home country.
Miss Hassan is residing with 10 other women, children, and her two boys Rajael and Irfan, close to the capital Kuala Lumpur.
We managed to get in contact with Miss Hassan who told us: "All I can do is pray and hope and never give up."
Home Office officials took her from her Huddersfield home in handcuffs on Sunday March 12.
She says she was treated badly by some officials before she was eventually flown back to Malaysia a week later.
Now she is struggling because some of her key documents have not been returned to her.
Miss Hassan tried hard to hold back her tears and said: "I want to speak out so that no one has to go through what I went through again.
"They handcuffed me and I screamed, they pushed me down, they pulled me down.
"I just smiled because I knew they were just trying to make me feel down.
"I'm not a criminal, I just want to make a normal life and give a normal life to my boys."
Miss Hassan says she was abandoned by the fathers of both the boys.
The children are mixed-race and non-Muslim, which is not condoned by Malaysian society.
This is why she left for England in 2003, because she feared all three would be ostracised.
"It's shameful, it's obscene, all kind of bad things.
"I came to England not for money, not for a better life - I just want to give my boys a better life.
"When people get to know about the boys' status the problems will start from there.
"I think they would call me names and then ignore me and tell me I'm a bad woman, immoral.
"It will be difficult to make friends and if I want to get a job, it's another problem if they know the truth.
"People's mentality is hard to change. Once you are perceived as being bad, then you're bad forever."
Asked about the boys she said they were just about coping.
A tearful Miss Hassan added: "I can't stop crying and sometimes I feel I don't have tears left to cry any more."
However, there could be hope for Miss Hassan and her family.
On Friday we reported that her Lockwood partner Simon Ackroyd plans to marry her, making Miss Hassan eligible to return to the UK.
"He's a very, very special person," she said.
Now she just wants to get back and finish her university access course.
"I love the countryside very much, the people are so nice, friendly and helpful. I miss that very much. I call England my home now."
There are many people in Huddersfield who are supporting Miss Hassan and she said she couldn't thank them enough.
"They have been very supportive of me. They have been so, so great," she said.
